Thursday, December 24, 2009

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Friday, December 18, 2009















This is for you dad, I know you liked to see snow too!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Please come visit to dad life. It about my dad going through Cancer. http://anthony7-lifewithcancer.blogspot.com/

The day my dad was better, he wanted to show me the video about the mother and son, The mother found out she have cancer, and on the last day was the mother's life. And her son brought a Christmas shoe for her and he put it on his mother feet, and she died. The last time he'll see her. And that what the video my dad wanted to me watch, but I was too lazy and goofy. So I finally got up, And my dad never gave up asking me to come watch video. My dad is just trying his best to live. Well, today I was in major depression. I kept getting angry with myself. Right now I am failing my Geometry, It hard for me to think all at once now days. I always enjoy my dad's story. What he had done in his past. I love hearing his voices. My dad always telling me never give up, no matter what. I hardly get a sleep. Every night I get into my bed, starting to daydreaming. Right now, I am losing friends, because I don't feel so comfortable around people. hearing people behind my back. Always respect to others, be responsible. People who fuss and cuss needs to grow up. Acting like a childish. I know I do that sometime. Like me and Annie (sister). And sometime we hardly get along. I scared Annie When I was angry in bathroom crying. She just like she seen a ghost lol. Of course I like scaring people. I always sneaking up to my dad room and see what he is doing in there. I get very quietly. I can't believe one of my friend said I don't have any self- esteem. I guest I am really really quiet. In lunch today while I was alone, I started to think about cutting myself, but I didn't because it very stupid things to do. So trying not to think about that. When seeing your lovely dad weak, hard to move on. You know people would cry, when seeing some weak, trying to fight theirs life. I love question my dad, cause he knows a lot more than I do. He is very good Listener. And I always like some good listener. Annie get selfish sometime. I never really do like people who are selfish. I made 74 i think, In my 1st period class. But that was my exams test, YIKES! But other than exam test, I made 91/A. She was reviewing the question, but I could no longer paying attention to her, All I see is my dad in my head, remembering the old days, always running toward dad at school office, remembering me and him walking up drive way talking, dad always come home 7 o'clock pm, Playing basketball, volleyball, and once he was riding my scooter, he fell off and landed on concrete and he was bleeding on his knee. It was funny, but that what I been thinking about all day long. And I am pretty sure my dad might read it later. and he may remember that scooter. He was playing with Matt other days, on July 4, shooting each other fireworks. lol