Poem

I woke by sounds
But I rather sleep in clouds
Went to school
Brought me back to my old laughing
And Smiles
never done that in a long time
Since bad things happened
No one knows me
Cause I kept words for myself
Coming on my way to home
With my laughter and smiles
Until...
heard bad news
My laughter disappear in winds
Send the laughter to others
My smiles turned into sadness
Why? making others angry?
And painful?
Why news always have bad endings?
Where is the good news?
took my good news away?
Why rain and snow?
Does it makes things worse?
running through my minds...
Looking all those snapshot
in my head
Oh why
why memories?
hear one word
I will shattered into little glass
never get it back together
only it will take forever
Every second is my past
Every next step is my future
Why seeing things repeating over?
and over
used to be ashamed for whom I was
I was not myself
I came from middle of nowhere
in my mind...
Do you really want to know me?
Of course NOT
I will never share my words
unless it is important
like saving lives...
mother and father...
Are they ready to hear my words?
My words will tear them apart
Even my darkest secret...
They well not know me
for sure...
Cause I am different from inside to outside
Hopefully they understand
Why I kept my words...